hello...

listening to a song now 'shawty- Akon' and just remembered some1. yes!! its a him..lol. lets call him Mr Cool.. shall we??
so this friend of mine has been real nice to me and tinz. we were 'fake friends' on facebook at first but we sha got talking.. and the rest dey say is history. you know when derz some fantasy about finding the person dat wud just take u out on crazy ass dates eertime.. dat is Mr Cool (MC) for you.

As an individual, i try as much as possible not to get attached to people cause wen i do, its no holds barred. same way in mc'z case. started feeling his steez well. so tey i even call him once in a while.. which i dont do on a normal day..lol. and tinz started getting really great. the first stage of d friendship was full of forming, with all the english, no crazy side of me showing and all dat.need i forget to mention.. i make people so comfortable around me dat dey start to show their bad manners. but we became really comfy with each other and a lot was let loose...

so y am i telling u about mc??? me sef i dunno. but i was about to enter anoda stage of liking him when i just heard gist dat d young man is chyking anoda babe. now the thing is.. y am i bothered?? he isnt asking me out or is he?? u c dats d problem. nothin is defined between us. we consider ourselves friends with... lol (u complete it)

I'LL GET BACK TO THIS- MC


Am listening to anoda song now- SOMETHING YOU FROGOT- lil wayne. my bestest aand special-est person (AY) told me to listen to it wenever he offends me. dis is an exception tho. d song just came up. so the thing is .. dis guy is really dear to me and i can do anything for him.
we started out as ordinary pals.. we used to read together.. we did a lot of amebo together.. had d best laf together and we even talked about his paroles (girls) as well. he was just d best.
i had a boyfriend at dat time. but it dint matter. ours was just plain old friendship.

but things took a different turn and our closeness was just too mad. we were like togeda 4 like half of everyday... we spent almost eer free time together and everything was just beautiful. but den all of a sudden... i started catching feelings. hmmn!!! it wasnt an easy something o.
we talked about it. it was a mutual thing. and dere was consideration for us being an item. but cos of some tinz.. we dint go further.

den somedays ago, MC called me and said he was coming to my side. we were to go out dat evening. i was chilln with AY at dat time and i told him to come get me from AY's side. dats how after a while...(MC was calling me a lot) AY switched off. i knew why.. am sure y'all do. maybe??? obviously??? i asked him wat d matter was and he said nothin. after a while.. he was like dere are some things you know you cannot have in dis life. dat its just d realization dat i'll grow someday and be with some one else and things like dat.

dis is some1 i can say i am so much in 'like' with him..lol. and dere he was yarning sumthn i dont even understand. my dear friend left me stunned. so fast forward to the next day.. we had a talk, and he said it was just an attention thing...dat he dosent want his weakness( dats me in reference) to have a hold on him and he dosent/is not ready for change and he isnt even goin to marry some1 he loves because he dosent want to be attached to anything . he said so much.. i was in shock.. almost cried. but i held my own. as am thinking about it now.. i feel like crying. but am still confused bout the whole thing. this is some1 i like a lot. lets even say love.. yet he dosent want to be involoved cos he dosent want to have a weak side dat can influence him. he even said dat i am too gud to be true cos dere too much peace between us.. eewo!! dats wen i even almost passed out. dat we have neva fought in almost 3 years and dat is not normal. people!! help me put here.. i really need to hear from you o.

because it is a s if am already locking-up.

den i tot id move on with MC. but i hear gist dar d young man is even doing anoda babes parole. not dat hez goin out with her o. but dey're sha talking. and d babe is really in close proximity. heard from a friend dat has a friend dat is her friend. but mehn!!!! i dont noe wat is doing me o.

DIS WHOLE SHII IS CRAZY!!!
i think i need a new toaster!!!